Praise the Lord for new day.
So there has been a bunch going on behind the scenes in my life and it has taken me away from writing and honestly from focusing on the here and now.
Lets be honest:
This week started off terrible. I am not immune to horrible weeks and this week began as one of those. From the initial start of Monday morning at 6 am locking my keys in my house the day progressively got worse and honestly Tuesday was not any better. I was mad at the world so if I was snippy with you sorry. I was literally in a funk. Still somewhat funky but definitely not as bad as it was or could be.
Lets set this story up. I have been going though an inner debate with God wondering what He was doing and how He was working in my life, with His timing and purpose. To be perfectly honest, I was annoyed, frustrated, and down right aggravated with the waiting that He is having me do on certain things.
Among all of that was work, attempt at a social life, summer program, attempt at enjoying summer, weddings, showers, and baby births, and to top it all off I applied to a Ph.D. program, like that would help my busy schedule.
So here I was frustrated. I came off of a great relaxing weekend that allowed me to just focus on God who He is and what and who He has placed in my life. I am blessed. I forget that often, but my definition of success and God's are different. My journey and God's are different but His way is always better.
So recap:
weekend=great
Monday and Tuesday= Stunk
Last night I just went to bed annoyed with the day, and excited that today was a new day. I knew I had a big decision that I needed to make and despite the answer it had to be done. A program which was supposed to start in the fall I just could not settle taking the courses so soon. I knew I needed to defer but yet that would mean more waiting, waiting that I had just been annoyed with God about.
My life group girls and friends had been praying for me this morning. Now when I woke up I was ready to make the decision. Off the email went this morning and for the first time I could breath, not just sigh... but breathe deeply. Getting text from my girls made it so much better. Their prayer, their love, yea God wants us to be in community. It is amazing.
As I left to go collect sandwiches this morning the sunrise was God's masterpiece. He was showing off for me, to know that He is in control. He was reminding me that His timing (what I struggle with the most) is the most important.
The email went, and collection went well then came into with without a headache, first time in two days. Already I have received a response that the email about deferring was accepted and I will meet the program with a clear mind and knowledge knowing that God wants me to do it, but to do it later.
Whatever the decision would have been from the committee would have been fine. It is comforting to know that despite my waiting there are times when God wants us to wait even longer and times to speed up the process.
God is in control, great reminder. New eyes, new lens, new focus means a new perspective on what, how and when He works in our lives. New day and I praise God that He allowed me to slow down enough to hear him! Hoping I continue to do that in the future.
Lots of Love.
Lets be honest:
This week started off terrible. I am not immune to horrible weeks and this week began as one of those. From the initial start of Monday morning at 6 am locking my keys in my house the day progressively got worse and honestly Tuesday was not any better. I was mad at the world so if I was snippy with you sorry. I was literally in a funk. Still somewhat funky but definitely not as bad as it was or could be.
Lets set this story up. I have been going though an inner debate with God wondering what He was doing and how He was working in my life, with His timing and purpose. To be perfectly honest, I was annoyed, frustrated, and down right aggravated with the waiting that He is having me do on certain things.
Among all of that was work, attempt at a social life, summer program, attempt at enjoying summer, weddings, showers, and baby births, and to top it all off I applied to a Ph.D. program, like that would help my busy schedule.
So here I was frustrated. I came off of a great relaxing weekend that allowed me to just focus on God who He is and what and who He has placed in my life. I am blessed. I forget that often, but my definition of success and God's are different. My journey and God's are different but His way is always better.
So recap:
weekend=great
Monday and Tuesday= Stunk
Last night I just went to bed annoyed with the day, and excited that today was a new day. I knew I had a big decision that I needed to make and despite the answer it had to be done. A program which was supposed to start in the fall I just could not settle taking the courses so soon. I knew I needed to defer but yet that would mean more waiting, waiting that I had just been annoyed with God about.
My life group girls and friends had been praying for me this morning. Now when I woke up I was ready to make the decision. Off the email went this morning and for the first time I could breath, not just sigh... but breathe deeply. Getting text from my girls made it so much better. Their prayer, their love, yea God wants us to be in community. It is amazing.
As I left to go collect sandwiches this morning the sunrise was God's masterpiece. He was showing off for me, to know that He is in control. He was reminding me that His timing (what I struggle with the most) is the most important.
The email went, and collection went well then came into with without a headache, first time in two days. Already I have received a response that the email about deferring was accepted and I will meet the program with a clear mind and knowledge knowing that God wants me to do it, but to do it later.
Whatever the decision would have been from the committee would have been fine. It is comforting to know that despite my waiting there are times when God wants us to wait even longer and times to speed up the process.
God is in control, great reminder. New eyes, new lens, new focus means a new perspective on what, how and when He works in our lives. New day and I praise God that He allowed me to slow down enough to hear him! Hoping I continue to do that in the future.
Lots of Love.
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