When fear trumps faith.

When fear trumps faith.

Fear. This nasty little word that gets inside our head, and tests everything about us. Our emotions our deepest concerns, our wildest imagination, and our most challenging thoughts are all brought to the surface. 

Fear, when we remember something we forgot, fear when we forget something we should remember. Fear when our lives are not turning out the way they should, we want them to be, or others tells us they are. All of these fears paralyze us into the reality of going with our instinct and what feels right in the moment. This can cripple us. Sometimes we can feel like we are sinking. Yet we have the ability to thrive like this water lily. In the midst of other things not being able to stand the constant water it thrives. 

I have a crisis sister. She knows who she is. When something terrible goes on we text each other or call. Now to be honest we don’t see each other but once or twice a year but we text maybe every other week. A bad day, a big decision a life change event. All of these things are shared in this safe space with her.

My fears are quietened when I take them to God, when I take them to people that he has placed in my life. One of those is Andrew. He sits and talks with me about the fears, walks through them with me and then sometimes he just holds my hand and lets me cry. Other times it’s my parents or my crisis sister or my best friend. I thank God for these people who allow me to release my fears in a safe place and in a way that I can breathe even when I don’t want to. I realize what a privilege that is to have those people in place and that we need to be those for others.

Other people don’t have a safe zone, other people don’t have a crisis sister, other people don’t know they need one till it is too late. Be the change you wish to see in the world, literally don’t just say it be it. Do the extra thing, go the extra mile, even when we don’t want to because man there are times when we don’t want to.